Saturday, July 21, 2007

Ben Cameron Speech

Ben Cameron Speech
A keynote speech by Ben Cameron at Dance/USA's Winter Council


" It is an honor for me to be here, not only because I've been a huge admirer of Andrea Snyder for a number of years – and we have known each other for 15 years at this point, having both been at the NEA [National Endowment for the Arts] at the same time – but because I stand in awe of a lot of what you all do. Even though my official point of orientation is the theater, part of the great joy I've had over the years is experiencing other art forms, especially dance, during my years in Minnesota. Whether we're talking about work like Uncle Tom's Cabin by Bill T. Jones or The Hard Nut by Mark Morris, whether we're talking the companies of Amanda Miller or Susan Marshall, whether we're talking the phenomenal physical power of Elizabeth Streb or the incredible physical grace of a company like the San Francisco Ballet, whose Carmen on tour was the first thing I ever saw that was a professional dance experience in North Carolina in the late 1950s, you all have significantly altered and transformed my life and amplified the vocabulary with which I filter the human experience. So I am in debt to you for everything you do everyday.

That said, let's get right to it.

Last night at dinner, there was a group of six or seven of us who began to discuss the bifurcated leadership structure our organizations typically have. Certainly in our field that artistic director/managing director leadership structure is the predominate model for major organizations. We were asking the question, "Is this applicable? Is this appropriate? Is this even feasible in the current economic times in which we live?" Our conclusions, which I don't think we reached necessarily, probably were less powerful for me than the subtle uncovering of the essential differences of assumptions of our relative fields. Although I thought I understood in parallel much of how dance companies behave by analogy for how theater companies behave, nonetheless, that conversation subtly teased out the most miniscule, but the most revealing differences in our two fields.

For that reason I want to preface this by saying I'm not capable or equipped of talking to you about what dance should do, can do, ought to do, in order to survive these times. Maybe the better way of looking at my time before you is to let me share with you what the theater field is asking, what questions we are raising, how we are approaching these concerns in hopes that this will either stimulate flashes of recognition or provoke similar questions of your own. Clearly, the thing I don't need to say is that I'm standing in front of you, or we're all collected in a time of unprecedented stress. It's easy for us to benchmark the beginning of that time from 9/11 for those of us in the United States, and clearly we do. And while I wish I stood before you with more than antidotal information, with quantifiable fiscal survey information, we like Dance/USA conduct our fiscal analysis based on audits.
If dance companies work the same schedule as theaters do, most fiscal years end June 30 and the audits get approved in October or November, sometimes even slightly later. We are in the process of gathering those audits now and crunching those numbers to be able to say, "Here is the impact of that dire, unprecedented year fiscally on the theater field." We don't have those numbers yet. But given the enormity of what happened during 9/11, we took the unprecedented step at TCG [Theatre Communications Group] of saying to our membership at three different points in the year, "We know it's not audited, but times are too urgent. So we are going to ask you how you are doing." The last of those surveys came at the end of the fiscal year period.

And here is what our members told us: 35 percent of theaters nationwide said, "We experienced a shortfall in government giving"; 51 percent of theaters said, "We experienced a shortfall in individual giving"; 52 percent cited a shortfall in foundation giving; 55 percent said, "We experienced a shortfall in single ticket sales and subscriptions"; and 67 percent said, "We experienced a shortfall in corporate contributions." As horrific as these numbers are – and they are disturbing to say the least – we recognize this is the beginning of a much longer, much darker period. When I say only 35 percent experienced a government shortfall, I'm not saying the obvious. The bulk of government budgets were set before the events of 9/11, and already, if you live in a state like New Jersey, where I live, you know that state after state after state is encountering record debts of projections for state budgets. In those states, every arts budget is up for attack and to date 42 of the 50 states in this country have cut their arts budget over prior year levels in figures ranking from six or seven percent in North Carolina to 67 percent in Massachusetts. The New York governor just announced an additional 13.5 percent cut the day before yesterday. We know that government number will be much worse 12 months from now than it was this last go-round.

When I say corporate contributions are going away, I'm also not acknowledging the obvious that increasingly corporations continue to turn their backs or make the case that other priorities call on their attention more than the arts. Tim McClimon of AT&T in a conversation yesterday said, "In the last two years, my giving budget has gone from $51 million to $10 million. In fact, AT&T has less money to give away than it has ever had, including the year the foundation was founded. What I don't say about foundations is what's obvious for many of you, that many foundations give on a rolling average of three years' assets, and many foundation officers I know say, "Look, you guys in the arts are still experiencing the largesse of the stock markets of '98, '99 and '00, and when the stock markets of '00, '01 and '02 become the basis for that average, foundation giving in this country will crash and burn." Already we've seen The Pew Charitable Trusts withdraw from the national funding arena. We've seen the Irvine Foundation in California lay off its entire arts and giving staff but one, and this is just the beginning of that trajectory. Individuals are far less certain to give when their asset base is uncertain, so what, in sum, disturbs us is not simply the fall in one of these sectors.

Shortly after Andrea and I both left the NEA, government giving at a federal level fell precipitously, but it was offset by the rise in foundation giving. In comparison, this situation today, to anyone's memory, is the first moment that any one of us can recall where everything is trending south at the same time: foundation giving down; corporate giving down; individual giving down; all going down at the same moment. How we will prepare ourselves for that moment is anyone's guess. In the theater field, several central questions obsess us in this moment. How do we manage for the long term to keep alive the vision and vitality of the art form and the epic scale we exist to serve, while overcoming in the short term the very real financial obstacles that plague us? How do we reward the aspirations of an emerging and future generation of artists and leaders without dismantling the achievements of the past generation? How do we find the courage and the creativity to embrace the future, to be masters of change rather than casualties of change? To have the courage to risk, and by risk I don't mean behavior responsibility, I mean constantly pushing ourselves beyond our comfort zone remembering that risk lies at the heart of everything we do artistically. Without risk, there is no artistic moment; we all know that. How do we make sure our organizations have that same degree of commitment to risk, even in a time when everything else preaches to us we should be thinking in the opposite fashion?

For my own part, I have to begin by acknowledging that if we look on this as all caused by 9/11, we have totally missed the boat. I believe 9/11 caused none of the stress we are experiencing to date. 9/11 may have sped the degree to which these things came home to roost, but increasingly if we look backward in time, already in certain benchmarking trends we can see slowing and breaking movement happening that 9/11 simply threw forward into bold relief. If we're going to manage for the long term and understand the mission before us, I would propose that, regardless of what we're experiencing individually, collectively we have to ask ourselves at least three big questions.

Before I tell you the three, let me also add that I think partly what we need to do is step back to say perhaps what we are experiencing is less a particular moment in history than it is the confusion that happens at any change when we experience a seismic upheaval in human consciousness. Now that's a mouthful, but if you've read [Tolstoy's The Death of] Ivan Ilich], it reminds us that there are certain fundamental changes in human consciousness. We used to be an agrarian or an agricultural society, and in that time what did history mean? History meant we came together, we sang songs, we danced dances, we chanted chants and in that way history was a tribal, collective, oral, on-the-ear activity. But then came the printing press, and we moved from being an agrarian society into an industrial society and in that moment everything changed. How we thought of the individual changed; how we thought of history changed. Instead of being tribal, collective and oral it became private, individual and visual as history was recorded on the printed page.

Indeed, how memory was even conceived changed. Memory used to be you made architecture in your mind and you stored memories in rooms and you sent a runner to retrieve the memory from that room, if you read classic Greek; that was memory. Now memory is a file on the printed page. Ilich would say we are at another such seismic moment as we move out of the industrial age into the
information/technological/digital/whatever-you-want-to-call-it age. And it's not that computers and technology are good or bad, but it's that they are. And in this moment everything we have come to hold sacred is up for grabs.

Tom Friedman, a global economist for The New York Times, spoke at our conference two months before 9/11 and presciently and ominously predicted virtually everything that came to pass, but he also offered a powerful metaphor that makes this case. He said, "For those of us over 40, the world we grew up in was a world symbolized by the Berlin Wall. In a world of the wall, it's easy to know good from bad, friend from foe, black from white. But the world we live in now is not the world of the wall, it's the world of the web. And in the world of the web, everything is intermingled. It's not so easy to distinguish friend from foe; it's not so easy to distinguish black from white. As he reminds us, in the world of the wall, every Nobel Prize winner was a king, an emperor, a prime minister, a powered individual, but in the world of the web think about the housewife who won the Nobel Peace Prize by starting an anti-landmine campaign on e-mail. Not an individual benign with power, a super-empowered individual. And it takes no more than 9/11 to remind us that it takes only 18 super-empowered individuals to temporarily bring a world order to its knees. Now, in that construct there are at least three big questions, again, that I think we need to ask ourselves or to look at, and for my mind the questions are defined as follows: they examine who we are; how we think; and how we congregate. Now I want to take each of those briefly in turn with you.

First of all, who we are. I always preface by saying that it's odd that someone who is going to talk to you about cultural diversity is a white male, but I'm your speaker so that's what you've got. I also want to preface by saying, as a former funder I worry that we've had this conversation for precisely the wrong reasons. I worry that we've talked about cultural diversity in the context of the changing demographics; that we all know by the year 2050 the majority of people in this country will be people of color, and that many of us have said, "Ooh hoo, God, the audience has changed. Boy, I better get with the program or I'm going to be out of business." I call that demographic blackmail. Demographic blackmail is not the reason to walk the road of cultural diversity for me.

We've often, at least in the theater field, chased the dream of cultural diversity, in part because funders encouraged us to do so. As a former funder, I take responsibility to acknowledge that in retrospect I worry that what we were really doing was perpetuating old patterns of funding. Essentially, what we were able to say is, "Gee, let's give the way we've always given because we'll give a million dollars to the orchestra, but here if you'll only diversify while we continue to give the African American theater ten thousand dollars." That was about perpetuation of existing standards not about changing behavior, and money for me is not a reason to diversify. I think I'm going to talk about cultural diversity, which is, in theater at least, a hard, difficult, painful road often fraught with frustration and setbacks and misunderstanding. We have to reach to a more personal place to make that commitment.
The place from which I come to this is actually my background as a Southerner. Here's my road into cultural diversity. I was born and raised in North Carolina in a town called High Point, and I did my college years at Chapel Hill. Every Southerner I've talked to, no matter where you were born and raised, when you were born and raised in the south you were acutely conscious of how the rest of the world thinks about you. You know that the rest of the country thinks you're Dolly and Dogpatch, grits and collards, Gomer, Guber, maybe Scarlett and Rhett. Every Southerner I know has experienced the look of condescension that crosses a Yankee face when they hear your Southern accent for the first time, and the subsequent look of amazement when you put two intelligent consecutive sentences together. I heard somebody say, "That's so true." And the media, rather than dispelling these limiting images, tended to reinforce them. I didn't know Gomer and Guber growing up in North Carolina. I'm sure they existed; they weren't part of my world. But when people have said to me, "What was it like to grow up in the south?" I say, "The world I think about first is the world of my grand-daddy Brown, who I pay honor to partly at this moment: a man who was briefly in Ripley's Believe it or Not for delivering his 6,000th baby on his 97th birthday; a man who was an Appalachian country doctor in the back hills of a little town at that point called Hendersonville, North Carolina, which has grown much better; and a man who was probably the single biggest formative influence on how I look at the world. When I was four, grand-daddy said to me, "Get in the car. We're going to go collect $200 worth of bills." I got in the car, and grand-daddy had palsy so he shook, which meant he couldn't keep the car quite on the road, so everybody in town knew if you see Doctor Brown coming, get out of the street. So we're going bumpity-bumpity-bump down these streets and little kids were going, "Ahh, Doctor Brown," and diving into the doorways. When we came back at the end of the day, we had a side of ham and a bushel of corn and 30 jars of jelly and five dollars in cash. I was very impressed with that, and grand-daddy said we broke even.

When I go back to Hendersonville, North Carolina, today, I go to a thing called Curb Market, which is their equivalent to a farmer's market, and I look for the oldest person I can find and I say, "Did you know Doctor Brown?" And they all say, "Why sure I do, Doctor Brown." And I'll say, "Well, I'm his grandson." Then they say, "James Steven Junior, you come over here," and they'll say, "This is James Steven. When your grand-daddy delivered him, we couldn't afford to pay him so we just named the baby for him." I think there are more James Stevens per capita in Hendersonville, North Carolina, than in the rest of the country. After a short, fantastic conversation about grand-daddy, there's inevitably the part where they try to say to me, "Now, this pound cake is just going to waste," and, "You need some of this jelly. This plant will look real nice in your New York apartment," and on and on and on. Ultimately, my point being as follows: yes, the south is the world of ignorance and prejudice in many cases that outsiders tend to see first, but it is also the world of infinite generosity, of deep family connection, of unbelievable graciousness even in the face of the most austere of conditions.

I was in the twelfth grade before anybody showed me the work of William Faulkner, and it was manna from heaven, because for the first time I didn't see the story told about the south or to the south. I heard the story of the south, told by the south, for the south as only the south can tell it. From what I know as a Southerner, it is not a leap for me to make to a child of color who goes to our arts events time after time after time and never sees himself or herself walk out on that stage. From what I know as a Southerner, it is not a leap for me to make to the economically disenfranchised, who walk into the opulence of our orchestra halls and feel that the surroundings are shouting at them, "You don't belong." And from what I know as a Southerner, it's not a leap for me to make to funding panels where I hear the artists of color saying, "My brothers and sisters are killing each other in the streets and the arts are going to make the difference," and the white artists are talking about psychological transformation and getting in touch with their feelings, oblivious to the privilege that inheres if that's your most pressing concern.

If we're going to talk about diversity, we need to understand the role we have played historically in determining whose stories are told and how. We cannot congratulate ourselves for introducing the inauthentic. This is a very theatrical set of examples that may or may not resonate, but I've always thought that the film Guess Who's Coming to Dinner, the story of integration told for the comfort of white people, did not open the door for Spike Lee. Miss Saigon, the story of the Asian-American experience in Vietnam told for the comfort of white people, did not open the door for Amy Tan, and Philadelphia, the story of AIDS told for the comfort of the HIV-negative and straight, did not open the door for Tony Kushner. Yet, how grateful audiences are when Spike Lee, Amy Tan and Tony Kushner finally can speak. This is a hard road, as I've said, and I would certainly not expect every organization to make the case to embrace this priority, but, for my mind, if we fail to embrace this priority we collude with oppression, we block total self-fulfillment, we turn our backs on much of what is great about this country and, for me, that is just wrong.

Now, I also preface by saying maybe this is something that a younger generation gets that we don't. When I look at kids today, I see a cross-fertilization in hip-hop music and dance and a rise in interracial dating and interracial marriage that was inconceivable growing up, for me to ever see in my lifetime, given where I born and raised in the 1950s. Yet I have to ask, what do those kids see when they see us, and does our de facto segregation create a chasm with them that we will never ever ford? This issue of young people gets me to the second point – and this is really such a strong theatrical concern I'm just going to allude to it briefly in passing – which is how we think. We spend a lot of time in theater trying to appreciate the difference in perceptual frameworks, and I'm really going to shortchange you through this and not go through a lot of the background in this, because I don't know that this resonates with you in the same way. But to distill this idea, cognitive studies basically show that people over 40 think in linear narrative patterns, people under 20 think in visual and associative patterns. Think of the difference between ABC news and MTV news. Think of the difference between the sort of narrative stories we read as children and the Sesame Street format of "here's the letter A, now the number 10, and now let's all go to Afghanistan." It's a different perceptual framework that they are encouraged to use, and for us in the theater field, one of the critical issues we have to face is, what will it mean for our art form, in which 90 percent of our stories are told in a linear narrative construct, if increasingly we are being asked to tell them to an audience who is primed to hear stories told in a visual and associative way? All our talk, I think, about student matinee tickets is totally misplaced because when we say, "Gee, if we just cut student rush ticket prices, they will come flocking in our doors." I am sorry, but if it's about economics why, when I'm at Tower Records at midnight, am I number 47 in line behind kids who are carrying stacks of CDs at 15, 16, 17 bucks apiece? If it's an economic issue why, when I go back to Minnesota and go see the artist formerly known as the artist formerly known as Prince because he's Prince again, am I surrounded by kids who spend $105 per seat to be there? For me, in theater, I think this disconnect between our perceptual frameworks is profound, again possibly not of relevance. If you want to talk more about this, I'm happy to because we've got studies about this and I've got lots of stuff I could feed you about this.

But point number three is, "How do we congregate." Here again to be in the shorthand, when a book with the title Bowling Alone lands on the best-selling list, the title itself tells you we don't behave like we used to behave. Increasingly, of course, what we're learning to uncover is that people increasingly look at community as a virtual, rather than as a geographical construct, and that study after study after study of younger people when asked to define their primary community, they often refer to the people with whom they chat online at one or two in the morning. If this is what community comes to be, the question will be raised, "Why should I support the museum down the street if my community is the people spread over thousands and thousands of miles and will never benefit from its programs?" – a huge fundamental shift in the way we congregate and gather.

Now, in this moment I think we have two choices. We can either fold our tents and say, "OK, we're the dinosaurs. Let's just run for the barn with whatever meager pension plans we have in our collective hands and leave this to the next generation," and confirm our olds ways of behavior and look to entrench them even further. Or we can be inspired by at least an anecdote and by a speaker, the anecdote being the Wallenda story, which I found really powerful for me. There's a story about one of the [Flying] Wallendas crossing the wire who was always told that when the big gust of wind comes and blows you off the wire, you let go of the balancing pole and you grab the wire. Of course, you know what I'm going to say. Ultimately, he's on the wire and a big gust of wind comes up and he's got the pole, but that pole has sustained him his whole life; he's never walked the wire without the pole. The pole has tilted here and tilted there and brought him back more than once, and when the wind comes up, he refuses to let go of the pole and over he goes down to his death. We're in gale winds on the wire, and part of our challenge is whether we have the courage to drop the pole.
Now in this life Doug Rushkoff has given me the greatest way into this, the media specialist whose booked media buyers, I hope you know. When he said to us at the same conference where Friedman talked, "You know I look at this moment as a renaissance, and what's a renaissance? A renaissance is a renegotiation of old ideas to reach a new consensual reality." I love that phrase. It's a renegotiation of old ideas to reach a new consensual reality. Looking at this moment not as a moment of war and factions who seek to overcome us, but as a renaissance moment, suddenly the barrier has become different for me. Rushkoff reminds us the old renaissance gave us four things: it gave us global circumnavigation; it gave us forced-perspective drawing; it gave us Newtonian physics; and it gave us coffee, thank God, for many of us. He would contend that the new renaissance is giving us four new things: instead of global circumnavigation, space exploration; instead of forced-perspective drawing, holograms; instead of Newtonian physics, fractals; instead of coffee, Starbucks. So in that life how do we look at the three questions as defined with renaissance, in a renaissance perspective? Already I've alluded that in terms of race issues we have an amazing cross-fertilization of cultural influence that promises a whole new set of race relations in the United States that could rebound to our benefit. In terms of the technology that drives the difference in this perceptual framework, in terms of these computers, if we look at this not as an "either/or" but as a "both," and what we see, in the theater at least, is an unbelievable explosion right now of technological possibilities. We see scene designers designing in fantastic new ways. We see playwrights writing in bursts of new rhythm almost, as somebody said, like they are channel-surfing on TV watching five shows at once. But scene rhythms have gone to short, pop, simultaneous storytelling, interweaving narrative. It's a fantastic new burst of creative energy among writers. And we talk about this means to convene, and this for me is the most profound, this way we socialize differently. I'm most compelled by a survey done in Philadelphia by a real estate developer who was afraid he was going to lose his tenants to cheaper buildings with an explosion of buildings. He surveyed his local tenants four times because he couldn't believe what he was hearing. He was saying, "What's the thing you want most in life that you don't have?" thinking people would say, "I don't get enough exercise and so let's put free gyms in all the buildings so nobody will get fat." The number one answer that came back every time was, "We want the opportunity to socialize with people other than the ones we work with," very profound, very specific. For those of us in the south, you've probably heard the joke "air conditioning was the death of the Southern neighborhood," and it's not really a joke. When I grew up in the south, it was too hot to stay indoors in July. Every adult put their chairs up on the porch, every kid rode their bicycles up and down the street. You knew all your neighbors because you could not stay inside. Now in the south people go, "I'm in the summer months," slam the doors, crank up the AC, and they don't know people two doors away. That pales by the current pressures people feel by work schedules, rigor and technology, and people want to socialize with people they don't know. For that reason, we are saying smart theaters are asking the question, "Our mission is no longer to produce performances. Our mission is the orchestration of social interaction, in which the performance is a piece, but only a piece, of what we're called to do." And smart artistic directors and managing directors around the country are saying, "I just realized I have a main stage, an upper stage, a cabaret maybe, my lobby is my fourth stage and my lobby needs the same degree of curating and programming as my other official stages meet." That's a profound shift in the sensibility of how we think about our work.

Clearly we can't do all this alone. And even so, in the middle of this I am optimistic about our future, and I'm optimistic for three reasons. Number one, I'm optimistic in a sense because in those numbers I mentioned initially, 51% down here, 60% down there, on each of those questions roughly 30-35% of theaters said to us, "We're not sure we understand why, but we're having a better year than we've ever had." And beginning to poke at that a little more and say, "OK, so you had a great year. What was that about?" We are hearing three things. Number one, some theaters are saying, "We have to admit we had big reserves, we had good investments," and we even had one theater say, "We made money on our investments in the last year," which was pretty amazing, but in some rare cases we leaned more heavily on reserves than we needed to but we made it through.

The second group of theaters said, "Well, we had a hit, you know pure and simple, we had a hit." Milwaukee Repertory's Shear Madness ran for four months. They kept it open and managed to make the box office. In many theaters, they weren't expected, for example, Berkeley Repertory had a big hit with Homebody/Kabul, the four-hour Tony Kushner play about Afghanistan. So it's not necessarily just palatable fare, but it was a hit and it mattered.

But the third thing we heard was it's the board. If there's anything that is most critical to how we think about these times, in addition to refashioning our thinking in new frameworks, it's about how we think of our board of directors and that partnership. We're being very aggressive in telling our board members, it used to be enough to be a supporter of an arts organization to sit on its board: you wrote a check, you came to a dinner and were honored, you came to a few meetings a year, that was enough. It's no longer enough. To warrant a place on the board of directors now, to be charged with the steering of the destiny of a collective of artists and managers, to sit on that board you can no longer be a supporter of that organization. You must be an activist on behalf of that organization and that's a different shift of energy. Activists write letters to the editor and go to Albany or whatever state capital arts cuts are threatened because, as we all know, in this moment the voice of the artist is heard as too self-interested and it's the lawyer, it's the doctor, it's the banker, it's the housewife, it's the constituent who can be heard when art professionals cannot be. An activist board member takes a kid every time he goes to a theater or dance concert, in part because we know that everyone with a significant relation to the art had it before they were 18. If you get beyond 18, you're never going to be convinced, and in our long-term health getting kids to experience art at a young age is pivotal. Even better, they take a kid and a kid's friend because we know the two most powerful impacts on the investment in the arts are parental example and peer reinforcement – if you watched your parents go to the arts or they took you and if you had a friend who thought it was cool. I would bet all of you in this room could relate to those two things. That ensures arts investment. An activist board member leverages their social contacts. Steppenwolf [Theatre] has a big auction every year, which I love going to. It's their charity fundraiser. They've taken over a million dollars a year on this auction, and they auction things from pots and pans to dinner with Gary Sinise, which last year went for $75,000, and they sold two of them – unbelievable. One of the things they always auction off, which is my favorite, is a walk-on on Frasier because if you watch Frasier you may not realize John Mahoney, who plays Martin Crane the father, is a founding member of Steppenwolf. (The walk-on is, if this is the camera that was the walk-on. They sort of play it back so people can see what they did. They even sort of play it in slow motion because otherwise you'd have to say, "What, oh I thought – run it again.") It comes with first-class airline tickets, a suite at the Beverly Hilton, et cetera. The same corporate CEO has bought the walk-on for the last three years running at $35,000 a pop. He has never done the walk-on. He holds an essay contest in his corporation about why the arts are important, and the employee who writes the best essay gets the walk-on trip.
Activist board behavior, leveraging social contact, empowering and charging our boards to behave in this new fashion is absolutely critical to our success. Activism implies partnership, support implies delegation, and we cannot delegate the solutions to our financial problems.

Ultimately, activist board members additionally have shifted their orientation. In the theater field, we are quality-obsessed. We spend all our time in rehearsals saying, "How do I get a better performance? How do I get a better scene out of this? How do I get a better director?" It's better, better, better. If you're a manager you want more zeros on the budget because if you got more money you hire better talent, work gets better. Every grant application starts talking about artistic excellence, quality, better, better, better. As many of you may know, I left the NEA and went to Target stores (or Tar-jay as many of you may call it). At that point when I arrived there the people at Target taught me many incredible lessons, with the first and most pivotal being these: that while we were talking about quality, the rest of the country had moved on, and it is no longer quality that determines investment of time, money and energy; it's value. At Target, they always say, "You can have the best toilet paper in the world on the shelves. If people don't see the value of coming in the store in the first place, they never get to see you've got the good or the bad. And p.s., you better have the best on the shelf once they're inside the store." But value precedes quality as a source of investment. To that end, we ask each of our theaters to answer three clear questions that are hard. We say, "What is the value of your theater, or in your case, what is the value of your dance company?" Number two is harder – "What is the value that your dance company alone offers or offers better than anyone else?" – because duplicative or second-rate value in this economy will not stand. The hardest is "How will your community be damaged if your dance company closes its doors and goes away tomorrow?" If you can't answer those three questions, the only supporters you have are the people who are in your seats.

In the theater field we've become better about quantifying that value. Some of this crosses over. We already know that every dollar spent on an arts ticket leverages five to seven dollars for the local economy, between parking and restaurants and the fabric store where the fabric is built for the costumes. For the Chamber of Commerce, that's a fantastic argument of value that you need to have in your arsenal. We know that kids who participate in the arts do 80 points higher on SATs than kids who don't, and if you care about education in your community, you have got to care about the arts. We know that kids who study Shakespeare have greater verbal acuity, greater complexity of thought, greater tolerance of ambiguity. If you're concerned about mental development and intellectual development, you have to care about the arts. In race relations, there's a UCLA study that shows kids who have been active in theater are 42 percent less likely to tolerate racist behavior than kids who haven't. If you care about race relations, you have to care about the arts. Those are value arguments.
Indeed, when I was at Target, we used to go from community to community to introduce ourselves when we walked in the door. We would come to town and we'd say, "We're going to open a new store, we're going to give away a lot of money, and here's how you get a piece of that." And in every community people would begin by saying, "Excuse me, you don't know this because you're not from here, but we have AIDS exploding through the ceiling, we have welfare to work issues, we have a food bank without enough food to put on the plates, a homeless shelter without enough beds, we have a school system that can't put books in the kids' hands. Why the hell do you people give so much money to the arts?" And in every case, we'd say, "How many of you grew up singing in the church choir, acting in the school play, or whatever?" And almost every hand would go up and I'd say, "Tell me, what did you learn from this?" Somebody would say, "I learned exit stage left," or "I learned a musical scale," and then somebody else would say, "Well, I actually learned punctuality because I ditched class all the time, but you can't show up at 8:15 when the curtain goes up at 8." Somebody else would say, "I learned teamwork because when you sing in the church choir, it's not how well you sing, it's how well you listen and blend with others." There was a retired Marine in North Carolina who said to me, "I didn't learn discipline in the Marines; I learned discipline playing the French horn." Ultimately, when it came to value, the audiences we had were far more articulate about the value we offer than I ever could have been. If we don't know our value, all we have to do is ask our audience.

Now I want to share with you in closing two things, the first being on this value, a speech I ran across by McNeil Lowry from 1963, a visionary that many of you may know as the man who engineered the Ford giving program that led to the growth in the not-for-profit arts industry in this country. Lowry offered ten arguments for the importance of the arts, and I want you to hear both the beauty and the eloquence in the precision of the phrasing and also the double time that we're talking about his arguments in 2003 for arguments he wrote in 1963.

But here they are: the importance to the image of American society abroad; a means of communication, and consequently of understanding, between this country and others; an expression of national purpose; an important influence in the liberal education of the individual; I love this next one – an important key to an American's understanding of himself, his times and his destiny; a purposeful occupation for youth; in their institutional form, a vitality to the social, moral and educational resources of a community, and therefore, good for business, especially in new centers of population; as a component for strengthening moral and spiritual bastions in a people whose national security is threatened; and as an offset to the materialism of a new and affluent society. If we can't make this case, based on these things we know, then it's not going to matter about welfare-to-work or AIDS or homelessness or education. If we don't have these abilities, then we can't even have the conversations.

In closing, I want to share with you my favorite quote by Ann Bogart, an artist. We should always end and begin with artists, I think, and here's what Ann Bogart tells us in this time: "Do not assume that you have to have some prescribed conditions to do your best work, do not wait. Do not wait for enough time or money to accomplish what you have in mind. Work with what you have right now; work with the people around you right now; work with the architecture you see around you right now. Do not wait for what you assume is the appropriate, stress-free environment in which to generate expression. Do not wait for maturity or insight or wisdom. Do not wait until you are sure you know what you are doing. Do not wait until you have enough technique. What you do now, what you make of your present circumstance, will determine the quality and scope of your future endeavors. And at the same time be patient."

I've always said when I left Target that I did it for one reason – people, if anybody ever offers you the job of working at the Target charitable giving program, take that job, it is the best job in the whole world! and ultimately there's a joke about corporate philanthropy because, well, in corporate philanthropy you just had your last bad meal and your last sincere compliment – but I left it because I am convinced that when we give our lives to the arts, what we all do, regardless of discipline, is we honor the past, we commemorate the present, we shape and change the future in a way that does honor to all and violence to none. I don't care how much Jesse Helms may try to shame us from that path, it is God's work we do. In that light, I want to thank you for your part in doing God's work. I want to say to you TCG is here with its hands outstretched in friendship anytime we can be of help to you or Dance/USA. And I would like to thank you for your patience and kindness in listening to me today. Thank you very much."

Ben Cameron Discussion

As advertised, the Ben Cameron discussion that I have been putting off follows. I will be in Saratoga Springs, NY doing the SITI company's workshop and I'll be blogging about that so I figured I needed to get this one done.

( Ben Cameron is the former head of Theatre Communications Group, the organization that prints American Theatre MAgazine and compiles data about Americas Regional Not-for-profit Theatre Movement.)

Subscribers- They are your cash flow. They are money ahead of time.
They are guaranteed audience
Subscribers are less costly to renew and maintain a subscriber. It is twice as much to get a new audience member

But, the problem is single ticket sales are outpacing subscriber ticket sales.

How do we: a) Change that?
b) accept that and still make do?

*** Society is reflecting back to us our worth. We need to see this as feedback and change/respond ****

We need to ponder these thoughts to prove our worth:

1) Who we are-

Are we adept at speaking to a diverse audience?

2)How we think-

Society has changed the way it views the world. If you are over 45 years old you view the world ( and therefore storytelling) in a linear narrative way. If you are under 35 you view the world ( and therefore storytelling) in a visual associative way. This is in large part due to the invention of the television remote. Our generation grew up on watching three or more channels SIMULTANEOUSLY and still maintaining the plot and story of each show. Our generation sees the world in patterns. But the overwhelming majority of all dramatic literature is linear narrative, not visual associative. Does the Dramatic structure need to change to be built on patterns?

3)How we congregate-

With an on-demand culture growing, how does theatre operate as a specific time frame event? If you can choose to watch any movie any time you want, How does theatre with its 8:00 or 3:00 curtain compete? This is leading to our polarization, we aren't standing next to strangers in line anymore. *** We are still in search for our common meaning though***

Read Bowling Alone by Robert Putnam

4) Retail Shift-

We are in an experience economy. "The Starbuck's experience" However the new economy will be based off of Participation. Think of the success of American Idol, So think you can Dance, and other such entities that require your participation to operate. Do you know how many MP3 players there are on the market? There are over 11,000. But we only think about the iPod. Why? Because they have based them selves on co-creation. Make the soundtrack to your life. Our economy will be based off of co-creation not just consumption.


Read the Long Tail by Chris Anderson

5)Artistic Production and Distribution has become democritized-

There is an entire amateur class doing professional work: Wikipedia, SETI, Astronomers, etc. the Pro-Am movement is growing exponentially. What are the opportunities with a heavily trained professional audience who don't necessarily use their training ( Schools graduate 400,000 MFA students a year. They are not all working in their field, the market can not handle that many people. What does it mean to be trained and learned in a subject but not use that training or learning.)

Read the Rise of the Creative Class by Richard Florida


Do Artistic Director need top be more Museum Curators with a cadre of associate curators and creators? (Andre Bishop at Lincoln Center is not a director but he leads the direction of the artistry at Lincoln Center like a curator)

Genius is internal, not external

TCG's New Generations Program, a mentorship program

Theatre's incubating other theatre's- Steppenwolf and About Face, etc.

1) What's the value we offer the Community?
2)What's the value we alone offer the Community"
3)How would the Community be damaged if we close?

***Now answer those questions without using the words "theatre" or "art"***

Children's theatre of Minneapolis ( perhaps the best children's theatre in the country) has recently changed it's mission statement and motto to be:

"We bring Joy to Children"

Horizon Theatre in Atlanta:

"We connect Audience's to great Stories"

What are our Core values?

1) Core Values pervade the institution
2)Excellence is not a Core Value it is a given. Core Value is a choice
3)Core Values are something you'll do even if you are punished by it. You'll do it through thick and thin. If you say your Core Value is to produce works by artists of color, and you decide to produce Arthur Miller instead because it is more financially feasible, Producing works by artists of Color is not your Core Value.

Burn out is not exhaustion, it is a disconnect from your core values.

Generational divide is what is galvanizing the theatre.

Museums are getting it though ( MoMA, Wexner, etc.)

See a show at 6:00 p.m. then a tie in with a local restaurant for a Prix Fix dinner at 8:00 p.m. with questions on table about show to talk about.

Drama could be shifting to Linear narrative AND Visual associative

Should we say goodbye to Naturalism and realism? T.V. and Film do it so much better.

Let's open up everything to the audience. Why do we keep it so precious? Anne Bogart has open rehearsals and Open Tech. Ariane Mnouchkine has that and you can walk through and see the actors putting on make-up and costumes. The wizard is behind the curtain and the audience knows that. Isn't it more exciting to know he is behind the curtain and still be wowed, confused, and amazed?

Chittlin' Circuit- you can buy the DVD of the play you just watched at the show.

What are the positive things that we have going for us, that we can ride?

Americans get on average 3,000 marketing messages a day. How do we compete for attention? How does anyone know we are doing a show?

How to manage change:

Pick a partner and observe each other in silence. Then turn around and change one thing about yourself. Turn around and describe what changed. Turn around and change 10 things, repeat, 20 things, etc.

Change is increasing exponentially
Anxiety is inevitably linked to change
When asked to change people become competitive not cooperative
When focused on change, people focus on what is lost.
When confronted with change we focus on what is ours
When change is eliminated, we revert to old habits even though it may be less comfortable

3 regrets of retiree's:

1)Not enough reflective thinking
2)Never Clarified life purpose
3)Not enough risk

Don't let that happen!

If you ever have the opportunity to meet, or hear this man speak DO IT. He is brilliant in a thousand ways. I think he teaches at Columbia. Please God let him teach at Columbia. I'm off to Saratoga Springs now, wish me luck. I'll blog soon about it.

All my best to y'all
Here's to a better tomorrow.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

The Long Tail

This is an excerpt from "The Long Tail" by Chris Anderson. It is a fascinating book that you all should go and read. I haven't figured out the practical application to the knowledge in this book, but it is in there. I know. Scary, scary things.

"Is a fragmented culture a better or worse culture? Many believe that mass culture serves as a sort of social glue, keeping society together. But if we're now all off doing our own thing, is there still a common culture? Are our interests still aligned with those of our neighbors?

In his book Republic.com, University of Chicago law professor Cass Sunstein argues that the risks are real- online culture is indeed encouraging group polarization: "As the customization of our communications universe increases, society is in danger of fragmenting, shared communities in danger of dissolving." He evokes the famous Daily Me, the ultimate personalized newspaper hypothesized by Nicholas Negroponte of MIT's Media Lab. To Sunstein, a world where we are all reading our own Daily Me is one where " you need not come across topics and views that you have not sought out. Without any difficulty, you are able to see exactly what you want to see, no more and no less."

Christine Rosen, a senior fellow at the Ethics and Public Policy Center, shares Sunstein's concerns. In an essay in The New Atlantis, she writes:

If these technologies facilitate polarization in politics, what influence are they exerting over art, literature, and music? In our haste to find the quickest, most convenient, and most easily individualized way of getting what we want, are we creating eclectic personal theaters or sophisticated echo chambers? Are we promoting a creative individualism or a narrow individualism? An expansion of choice or a deadening of taste?

The effect of these technologies, Rosen argues, is the rise of "ego-casting" the thoroughly individual and extremely narrow pursuit of one's personal taste. TiVo's, iPods, and narrowcast content of all sorts allow us to construct our own cultural narrative. And that, she says, is a bad thing:

By giving us the illusion of perfect control, these technologies risk making us incapable of ever being surprised. They encourage not the cultivation of taste, but the numbing repetition of fetish. In thrall to our own little technologically constructed worlds, we are, ironically, finding it increasingly difficult to appreciate genuine individuality."



READ THIS BOOK! It is an enlightening, fascinating, challenging yet understandable, scary read. Don't take my word for it though, find out for yourself and argue with me about it. Ben Cameron suggested it and I am very glad I read it. Still coming with the last Blog about Lincoln Center ( Ben Cameron notes)

Here's hoping for a better future.

Lincoln Center- Over and Done with

So Lincoln Center is all over with. I really had a great time this last week and because I had such a great time I did not blog, I hope you will forgive me loyal readers. This last week we all devolved into teenagers, and basically drank ourselves silly every night. I didn't sleep in my bed or go to sleep before 4 A.M. any time this past week. If you know me this is a radical change. But great fun was had by all.....

So a weeks worth of notes:

Nepotism in the theatre- You don't have to be the best, you have to be the best friend of.

New Plays have a special aura around them when they haven't been produced before. They are viewed as tainted by many theatres their second time around. Kind of a sloppy seconds with plays. 2nd time around- The National New Play Network. Tries to get a second or third production out there so plays aren't saddled with newplay-itis.

Why not Develop Playwrights, instead of developing Plays?

When did the idea of workshop mean mini-rehearsals? Let's treat it like a craftsman's workshop where it's not ready for presentation but is being worked on so that it can be viewed, like a marble block in varying states of being sculpted

Developing a playwright. If a show is developed by a playwright that we don't want to produce they are free to shop that script around, we can even help, but we still maintain the relationship with that playwright because we are developing them and hoping that we get a script that we do like.

Actors are paid as long as they are doing something in the theatre (development, box office, education, etc.) Are free to leave the theatre and work on other shows but their day job is with us, we maintain the relationship with the actor as part of the company and they continue to grow. Win/Win situation. Work gets done, actors at disposal, and Theatre's name is out there for every show the actor does. Actor continues to grow, gets a living wage, and maintains the ability to be a part of a company. A mix between Steppenwolf and The Group Theatre

What would happen if a playwright were given. say $10,000 a year to develop their work in any way they saw fit? They could develop one show or several, they could mount one, or stage read several. The only catch is that all the money must be spent and they have to hire the actors and pay for the production if there is one. Ultimately they are responsible for how their work is treated.

Writers writing a play together based off of another play (shakepeare or Greek say) Each writer does one scene. Not trying to fit in any one style, they cover the entire play as closely as possible.

Montage- cutting up the play to assemble a new play

Could you have a directors montage? Where you have a different director for each scene or section and the Artistic Director acts as a curator to put the show back together in a way that makes sense?

Ask a dramaturg to act as the playwright when you are directing something you have written

Focus your point of view, energy will come from that- Andre Bishop, Artistic Director of Lincoln Center ( by the way he has never directed a show in his life, he is also a dramaturg)

The Necessary Theatre Company's mission statement is to ambiguous

Theatre is not an arena where you can get away with things.



I'm going to do one more blog after this one about Lincoln Center. It is from an amazing talk with Ben Cameron, the former head of Theatre Communications Group. He is the most amazing man I have ever met and he deserves a blog just to himself, and it is loooooong. I felt like my brain was on fire after talking with him. He will blow your mind as well. Incredible ideas and thoughts on how to move theatre forward.

So look for that in the next day or so. Thanks everyone for reading and discussing, means a lot to me. All my best

Lincoln Center Day 12

Discussion about Creating New work/Adaptation/Devised work (whatever you want to call it)

Director as Editor, or Dramaturg as editor

Vice List and Sampling

Jackie Chan has an entire room in his house devoted to ideas for his projects. They are clippings of magazines, pictures, and newspapers of moves, ideas, and thoughts that he feels drawn to and wants to try and incorporate into his movies. An entire room! All the walls are covered, ceiling, bookshelfs full clippings on the floor. He can go into the room and literally fall into a great idea.

3D mapping of ideas, like the statues we put up for inferno, but keeping it their so the creators can continuously check on it.

The problem becomes keeping it from becoming a secret party that the audience doesn't understand.

A General observation from the two weeks so far: Some people need to learn to self edit their thoughts. Some people talk far to much, even after their thought has been presented. Some take forever to get to their thought.It is quite fascinating sometimes, it's like viewpoints, you can see the moment come and go, and yet the horse continues to get beaten. I don't talk much in everyday life, and I certainly hope that when I do it is becasue something needs to be said. I know that isn't always the case, but I do wonder if some of these people know that we dread it when they begin to speak, or we check out half way through their idea.

Everybody look into Punchdrunk- a theatre collective out of London. Experiential work

Discussion about Dramaturgy

What the hell is it?

Another title for Literary Manager. Provide research ( isn't that my job, or the actors) and provide structure.

Everything you need to do a show has been needed since the greeks.

Make an actor the dramaturg, anyone who like input and can share that with the group.

Peer Gynt- cast a different Peer in each act?

Find the people who know, Librarians are good, make friends with them.

I have this sense that Dramaturgs don't even know what they do. They seem to have this superiority complex, yet still can't explain what their job is. I don't want to feel this way, I want to actually know. Am I missing a huge part of my work, or am I just missing out on extra weight. Are they Smart people who like research and Theatre and just don't like being a part of the actual DOING of the creative process, so they create a position of importance? What do they do? Research? Isn't that my job, and the actors? Structure? Isn't that the playwrights, mine and the actors? If a dramaturg is so important, why doesn't every theatre have one, or school? And when a theatre has one, why aren't they there at all the rehearsals? Can You collaborate with someone who is outside of the room doing a research project.Or are they a test audience? They come in early on in the project, leave, and come back at the end to see what works. Doesn't an Artistic Director do that?

Ended the day with a discussion with all of our International Directors. There are 61 of us this year. 1 from romania, 1 from Hong Kong, 1 from Nepal, 2 from the Netherlands, 1 from Brazil, 1 from cyprus, 4 from England, 1 from Italy, 1 from Norway, 1 from Germany, and 2 from the Phillipines. The rest from the US.

Really great discussion, ultiamtely what I took from it is that no matter how bad we feel the system we have here is, we still have it really good. Yeah, the theatre is subsidized in Europe, but no new plays are being done, or young directors allowed to direct. They all came here, and want to work here. They want to take our ideas and change their countries. We are viewed as the leader in the arts. This could be Money, Population, Space, resources, innovation, or intellegence. But it may have more to do with our youth. USA may not have a long past, and that helps us in our forward thinking. Mateo, the director from italy, brought up a great point that I remember from being there: Italians have an amazingly ancient culture that surrounds them. They are surrounded by their past. How do you create your future when you are constantly looking at and being judged by your past? And the same question applies to the other countires as well. Nepal and the King and Religion. Cyprus and the divide between Greek and Turkish cultures. Brazil and the slave trade that lead to the largest inequality of the distribution of wealth on the planet.etc. etc. Yeah we have our history and our problems, but by our very nature we forget it and move on in some way. We take as pride constantly re-inventing ourselves. I still want to work over seas, I still want to change what have here, I still wouldn't trade it for the world.

This workshob Lab has been really amazing (and I still have another week) and has really opened my eyes, and more importantly my mind, to ideas that I actively shut out before. Is this growing up? Probably. But I don't think I'm learning to accept this system, but understand it and make it work for me while trying to change it from the inside.

I dunno. Or the maybe the opposite.

Lincoln Center Day 11

Good day, good good day

Adjectives don't really help- "do that darker, Do that sexier" Verbs do help

Shear dedication to the task

Do it wrong, do it badly, do the lie first so you have a gauge of what the truth is and you know what to stay away from

Audience can not connect to technique, they connect to what is human

There is a certain danger in saying how good something was, it shines a spot light on it and induces the thought of producing the same result

Let's do it badly, do a shitty first draft

The experience of theatre is being with the actor, they are the primary creators


The Biggest trigger for laughter is surprise, Surprise of integrity is the noblest laughter of all, the hardest to get. The ability to be true and still be funny, the situation plays itself out in our imagination, the joke is in our head.

The idea you come up with to solve the problem may work, but is it as fun as the fourth least worst option?

Not trusting your talent is like walking a cat.

Where are you going? To the post office? Walk with energy!

Enthusiasm + Fun = Interst. We like it, we desire it.

More Stupid Fun

Hey you guys, looky looky

It's not the thing, it's the relationship to the thing

Do the things you are afraid of ( I am afraid of voice and comedy)

Don't make a mess you don't have time to clean up

And finally.....

I need to start acting again

Lincoln Center Day 10

Started work today on the Actor's process. Started with Master Acting Teacher/Coach Ron Van Lieu

At Steppenwolf there is a system set up whereby if you don't believe something another actor is doing you cry out bullshit! Olympia Dukakis has a similar technique where she says to an actor " You're either lying or you're stupid, which is it?"

What DO you know about your character

A play is a series of human interactions that lead up to an inevitability

How do you turn an idea into the thing itself. I can believe an idea but not always the event.

Always think of any bit as part of the whole

Get their thoughts into their body I UNDERSTAND (mind) what that FEELS (body) like

They ( the characters) move their lives forward ( by adjustments) until something wipes them out.

Thing you are attached to keep you from giving up or committing suicide. "I'd kill myself, but who would walk the dog. I'd give it all up, by I did just start this book." There is always hope, however small, until there is none left.

Let actor's know that you trust them to find it, even as they flounder in the dark for a while, the trust could be all they need. I did an excercise last week where I had to act and an actor playing the playwright ( John Guare) was in the room. I have always had a tendency to paraphrase, I told him that I was just finding my way in it and apologized for mangling his words. He simply said that it was ok, that he knew that I would get his words right soon enough. It is simple, kind, and also set up his expectation for me. It said " These words are very important the way I set them up, but however you get to them is fine, as long as you get to them"

We then had Clown Class with Chris Baye an Actor from Theatre de la Jeune Lune ( my favorite Theatre)

Make more room for wonder, make more roomm for the big stuff.

What is the speed of fun?

A little bit faster than your worry, a little bit louder than your critic.

Just be ready, and on your toes to play with abandon

Don't bring the "deadly" rhythem on stage.

Over the top- the original definition came from World War I, the men leaving the trenches to a certain death went "over the top" It is to risk everything, an act of courage

Anger is a secondary emotion

Enjoy the common problem, don't try and always solve it.

The zone of the pathetic, a mid way point on stage where something almost kinda happens, But find the sweet spot and it all shines.

It's always more fun with encouragement

If you didn't care about it, neither would we

It's the terror and panic you fight that we find generous. It's the gesture not the quality.

If you don't love what you make, don't bring it on stage. When I went to go see Peter Brook's Hamlet in Chicago, I got to meet Bruce Myers, one of Brook's main actors and longtime member of his company, and we asked him what advice he could give to a young actor. He said " Treat a stage like a battlefield, you wouldn't go to battle without your suit of armor" I took that to mean impeccable technique AND the passion and belief in what you were doing. Every warrior goes to battle with the skills and techniques to fight, but also the belief that what they could be going to die for is real, noble, and worthwhile

" I wish the stage were as small as a tight rope, so that no fool would step upon it" Goethe

Clowns always try to do it right/nice. They may be incapable of doing it right, but doing something bad just to get jokes never works.

If you can do it the "funny" way, why not do it?

Once the body is given permission, it is very reluctant to hand over the keys. Laughter will beget laughter. We want to experience what we see on stage and our mirror neurons fire to mirror that. If you let yourself go there it will want to stay there.

We then did Voice work for the rest of the evening, no notes there. Repeat of the same schedule tomorrow. Thanks for all the great thoughts, I love the dialogue. Hopefully I can keep this up through SITI, and maybe even Columbia. Dunno. Appreciate all the thoughts though.

lincoln Center Day 9

Day off on Monday- back into the swing of things today. Started with a Talk With Bernie Gersten the Managing Producer of Lincoln Center, the man who accepted the Tony for Coast of Utopia ( he also co-founded with Joe Papp the NY Shakepeare festival and the Public)

I want a Board of Directors that "urges us on in our follies"

Theatre is working if it is open and not imminently closing

Relook at word choice- Should we pursue success? No. Should we pursue popularity? Yes. To be popular isn't a bad thing, despite what reality TV and papparazzi have done to the word. Success implies pursuing $ Popular implies accesible and liked by many

It is hard to make a living in the theatre, but easy to make a killing

There is a 20% Recovery rate in the Non-profit theatre world. 20% of the shows will recover money or make money to cover the other 80%( hopefully)

Grasshopper and Ants. Commercial Theatre is all about the now. Non-Profit is the Ant, storing up for the winter, because we know that 80% of our shows will flop

We inherit the Theatre of "Now" and our job is to renew, reinvigorate, recombine, or revolutionize

Peter Brook's saying about all you need for Theatre is An Actor, an Audience, and a space is true. But to create a professional theatre add one more thing- Money. I think we want to do the former, without thinking about the latter. You can only go so far, or do so much with no one being paid or money not being spent.

Trapeze Artists- Flyers and Catchers Theatre's and the people who run them are the catcher's for the Flyer's- the artists.

Raise $ or Raise Ticket prices. If you raise money are you beholden to the people or companies. If you raise ticket prices can your ideal audience afford it.

Commercial Theatre is perpetuating the "elitist" myth by the ticket prices they demand

Actors have accepted the reality that it is more practical to job out and try to make more money than to commit to a rep company and stay someplace for a year. Partially why there is not a rep company in NY, or anywhere else for that matter.

We then heard from Richard Eyre- Former Artistic Director of The National Theatre of Britain ( also recently directed Notes on a Scandal if you saw that movie)

If you go through every line, every stage direction and ask what it means, your ideas will end up on stage. That is how his Richard III with Ian McKellan came about.

Directing isn't about having the answers, it's about having the questions

You need a mentor- someone who takes you on and believes in you.

there is no shame in silence, it can be an ally to not know

Do You build a Container and then play within it, Or Play and then build a conatainer. Is there worth in both, does one work better than the other?

We are creating a model society every night. A Utopia in rehearsal. The audience corroborates it.

Get everyone to talk, encourage all to question.

Writers will talk to much to pre-empt criticism

Only a Garden can teach Gardening. I will reapeat this because I believe that this was one of the most important things said today. Only a Garden can teach Gardening.

Peter Brook told Richard Eyre after he asked Brook if he could be his assistant. "don't waste your time being an assistant to anyone. Assistants are repetitiors not leaders"

You get there by time and developing nd reveloping your aethstetic

Be evangelical about theatre. Do good work and talk about it enthusiastically.

Theatre is poetry because everything is a metaphor- everything stands for something else.

Get rid of the idea of elitism- Cheap tickets, and good theatre

All bad art is bad because it generalizes, all good art is good because it specifies

You are the facilitator or animator not the originator, unless you are the originator

You don't have to be an auteur

MArlon Brando was actually a sticler for punctuation in Streetcar named desire, he would go to Kim Stanley and say she had missed a comma, he treated it like verse while still using the "method" or Adler or whatever the hell he did and we want to argue about.

Can you direct a collaboration without directing the play?

Risking a gesture of aspiration

What's the question the actor is asking? Which door do I come in? Or Why do I come in that door?

What is a living wage? What could you really do it on?

Most actors will get in trouble, the smart ones will ask for help. Cast smart actors, and don't say anything.

I'm going to be working with Actors from the Actors Center this week so it should hopefully get interesting. We are having some really good dialogues during lunch and dinner and of course I'm not taking notes, I'm taking part. But we can all talk about this some other time. Night All

Lincoln Center Day 7

Designer Day- We get to learn and speak to/from designer's. If you watched the Tony's you saw Bob Crowley win two awards for Design. One for The Coast of Utopia (here at Lincoln center) and another for Mary Poppins. Also Lincoln Center won for Coast of Utopia, man I wish I could have seen it. Thank goodness for the Library of Performing Arts where you can watch old productions.

There is automatically an elephant it the room with the designer. A hierarchy- Directors hire designers, they are the "boss"

What got you there? Designers like to be asked process questions. Directors need to stop focusing on product of designers.

Interview- don't grill them. It's not an audition but a mutual dialogue.

Honesty- If they aren't the best person for the job, Ok, They want to work on something where they are thought of as the besst person for it and will understand. Don't keep them in limbo either. Call them! Tell them yes or no!

They will always be thoughtful, they may not be passionate about the work, but they will always find something to passionate about. They want to love every project they work on too.

When asking them to design for you lead with the exciting stuff. Start with the play, concept, idea, passion. Then give dates, then give money. If you start with money, they hear that $ is the most important thing to you. If you start with passion and they get excited they are more willing to take the job even if no money is involved because you got them excited.

Do you want to have dinner with this person?

They are not shoppers, builders, or sewer's. They are designers, idea people just like you. They might shop, build, or sew but never treat them like they are not idea people.

Ask questions, don't tell

communicate, communicate, communicate. You can not overcommunicate.

Seduce them and demand from them. Set Standards you expect from them. They will get away with murder becasue they know that they can unless a standard is set.

It is never to early to talk about a project. Years in advance is ok.

Start with a meeting, go to a museum, not necessarily a concept.

Directors set up the way you are going to collaborate- so cook a meal, go for a walk, tell jokes.

Garland Wright had a way of working with designers and it was Ok. "Yes" "No" and "NOMS" (Not on my stage) Don't be ambiguous, "yeah, I guess that could work" "Oh, Ok, sure" . Yes, No, NOMS

Designers are willing to kill their babies too for the betterment of the production.

They love notes. But don't forget to give good notes.

They have committed to a communal process. Of every theatre artist, they could have a career in the fine arts, but they committed to a communal process. Involve them!

Don't just tell them "the one thing" that you need. Tell them why. They will learn more from the why, than the what..

I have Monday off, So I'll write again Tuesday Night. This week is all about the actor and we have some really cool guests this week. Thanks a lot everyone.

Lincoln Center Day 6

Nothing to talk about on Day 5, so here we go with day 6:

Process will mirror Content- If there is a lot to mine, the process will draw out.

Designers can viewpoint with Architecture in Space. What if the set changes every day in rehearsal? With the designer there in the room, you can find new discoveries.

Damned if you do, Damned if you don't with new plays- Every big "institution" in American Theatre started with new plays, eventually they started to get big, Started to not be able to do new work and sustain an audience, so they do workshops of new works to feel like they are living up to their artistic mission. But this puts playwrights in workshop limbo, never being produced but always feeling like their is hope.

America may be losing what was once called "High Culture". (This is a direct quote from a Brazilian Director) I do have to agree a bit, it is not elitist to want high culture. It is about education more than it is about "Art". Newspaper readership is down, Any Performing Arts are losing audiences, dialogue and diplomatic thought are not in vogue, can this change?

Playwirghts are afraid to speak to actors in Verbs due to the hierarchy of the director relationship. The director needs to set up the environment. everyone is beholden to work the way the director wants to work.

Letting go process-playwrights have to let of their work, directors have to let go of their vision at some point and let the actors have it.

Don't workshop something if you have no plan on doing it. Theatre's are workshopping productions now to forge a realtionship with a playwright so they can grab up the plays and keep others from doing them

Some people just will not go to theatre, that's Ok, accept it.

Words are powerful. Why call it anything. If you call it tablework, it sets up the expectation of sitting at a table for days and being talked at, an enviroment based off of past results. Those that need to be at a table can be there, those that need to get up and move or work in another way should be a llowed to. Everyone comes in with preconceived notions about something, don't give them more reason to. why call it rehearse ( literally to re-hear) when you can say we are going to work tonight, we are going to probe tonight?

I've noticed that the younger Actors do not speak in these group settings. Why? Is it fear of repercussions, not being cast, being thought of as a difficult actor with, my god, opinions? Or is it just a matter of being more outspoken as you get older as is the case with thte more mature actors here? Has American Theatre training taught us to "not rock the boat" "Be nice, they could get you work"? How does this set up an environment for dialogue and growth? Pushing the boundaries? Creation?

Lincoln Center Day 4

Lots of notes today. Very good discussions, Very good day. Though I am very sad, more on that later.

Don't tell me about it, show me so we can view it in the shared space

Intellectual Conversation may not be useful

or maybe it can be

Speak if you need to speak, don't otherwise. Speak from the heart

There is no one way t do the thing we need to do.

We need to figure out beforehand the way to go about it, and this changes for every project.

People understand love in different ways (Gifts, Deeds, Words, Physical Affection) Your lover may not speak the same love language as you

Paul Eckman- Neuro-Linguistic Response

How do you "hear" information? How do you take it in?
Kinesthetic Dominat? Visual/Facial/Emotional Dominant? Vocal Aural Dominant?

No one has an accurate picture of the total experience. ^ blind men were asked to describe an elephant. The first felt his side and said an elephant is like a wall, the 2nd felt his tail and said an elephant is like a rope, the third felt his leg and said an elephant is like a tree, etc. etc. Each experienced in their own way. Who was wrong? No one, they each had their own experience

M. Scott Peck "A Different Drum" Community Building

The 4 stages of building a community
1- Pseudo Community- everyone is polite, what do we have in common, no conflict, restraint, like a first date
2-Chaos-differences, conflicts, " I don't have any problems, but you do and I know how to fix them" Response to chaos is to sometimes go back to Pseudo Community
3-Emptying- Letting go of differences and attempting to reconcile them " we both have problems and I don't know how to fix that" Release. Emptying can be terrifying and lead back to chaos and invariably pseudo- community
4- True Community- "We both have problems and thats ok, because we can still work together"

Crisis or Isolation can speed this process up.

Peter Senge "The 5th Discipline"
A Rehearsal team- a group of people continually expanding their capacity to create the results they truly desire, where new and expansive patterns of thinking are nurtured, where collective aspiration is set free, and where people are constantly learning how to learn together

1- Personal Mastery- Are you any good at what you do? Are you expanding? Technique and Skill. Do You know who you are? Your tendencies and preferences? Doctors and Lawyers have to continuously do Professional Development, Why not artists. Ballerina's go to the Barre every day, Pianist practice scales, what does the actor, director, designer do? Why are special?

2-Mental Models- The way we view the world-Our assumptions. Can you visualizze the new/future/your ideas? Can you articulate them?

3- Team Learning- How does everyone learn? How do I talk to the them as A group and individually. Dialogue- Two points of view melding together. Discussion- trying to change the others view.

4-Shared vision- get on the same page.Do you all share the same values? If not can you still work together? Can you find a shared vision/value?

5-Systematically Thinking- How does everything relate? If one thing changes, how does it effect the whole? Relation between process and Product. Every Process has a product and every product has a process

System- a collection of parts working together, machine. Change on part and the whole thing changes.

Theatre is like a kitchen. We are all trying to cook a delicious luscious meal. You have your head chef, his sous chef, the waiters, the maitre d, etc. The customer never comes into the kitchen, because they may not want to eat there ever again. There are fancy restaurants, and weird food restaurants. Some people ( particularly americans) who decide to cook with a microwave to save time, yeah it's a steak, but it's a microwaved steak, a little rubbery and tough. I wish it was pan seared.

Is it true? How do you know that it is true?

In a for profit company you measure success by how much $ you make
In a Non profit company you measure success by how many lives you change. Who are you trying to change? That is your audience.

A leader doesn't lead everything. A leader can be someone who ask others to do things because they can do them better.

So the experiment they have been working on for three weeks has been interesting to observe. They turned rehearsl on its head. The Playwright runs the room. A director is at theur disposal and a designer who does not design. The experiment seems to be failing because everyone is slipping back into their roles. Is it because it is uncomfotable to do something new? Or does or training not allow us to do anything different? Or is it our culture? Or is the model we have now necessary, understandable, and the only way the only way to do it after centuries of experimentation?

I got really sad after viewing the play today, and not so much about the content. This is like being in a chocolate factory. You talk about chocolate, You discuss the ups and downs of chocolate, you trade recipes, you even see people eating it, but you never tste it yourself. I really want to work on a show. Soon enough. I will be inundated with work soon enough. And I'm a bit lonely. But that comes and goes.

I leave you with a great line from the play today...

"Hope is hard. Ah, but there is always inspiration."

Thanks everyone

Lincoln Center Day 3

More on Collaboration

Problem=Challenge=Opportunity

Agree on what the problem is. Are we even talking about the same thing or wasting time talking about seperate ideas.

Create a shared space. Try an idea so that both parties can view it/experience it then judge it.

O----> <----O Isn't good, because you both have differeing ideas of what the idea is
O

^ ^
/ ..
O O

Is much better because you can both view it from the same vantage point.
Example, with an actor that doesn't think it will work, ask them to try it so they can actually gauge the response.

It's hard being enlightened, it's effective but inefficient

"Here" instead of stop/Start when problems arise. Keep going, but yell out here so the SM or Director knows that the actors want to work this later but keep working for now.

Be clear what everyone's role is. Even if blurring boundaries, what is the line?

Who has a sense of ownership in the project? Who should lead the collaboration?

Actors need to be told if you are wanting/going to be training in rehearsal. Is this a job or is this a creation of technique driven ensemble piece. They need to know

Do you need everything you like? Do you have to like everything you need?

Majority rule ( Winner/Loser, Net zero sum)
Assignment- Inferno 2003, Control through agreement
Unilateral mandate-Dominator model, dictator
Avoidance- deciding by not deciding
Consensus- win/win An idea that everyone can LIVE with, not necessarily AGREE with

No sense of holding on to ideas, but being playful and enthusiastic about different and new ideas

Manipulate= etymology is "to tear apart with the hands" Manual
What a sculptor does with their hands with clay
Manipulation isn't a bad thing, though it carries a bad connotation

Thanks for listening and adding to the conversation. Nighty Night

Lincoln Center Day 2

Collaboration- We spent all day on it and will spend the next three. Hope it doesn't come off as boring, it was a fascinating day. I made friends, which you all probably know is hard for me to do.

We need complementarity in collaboration- Freedom/Discipline, Individual/Community

If you can do it by yourself, then by all means do it. Don't collaborate unless there is a need. Don't collaborate because it is in vogue

Why do you need to collaborate? Why on this project?

Don't deify collaboration. It is effective, but it is also inefficient. Every project needs to be examined to see what is the best.

Mothering an actor vs. Fathering an actor Nurturing vs. Challenging

Before beginning a piece agree on how you are going to collaborate.

Compromise isn't a bad thing. It helps you define necessity. What won't you give up.

Ask the actors, designers, etc. " how do you learn best?"

Collaboration weaves relationship and the project.If the realtionship is at a 10 and the project is at a 10 then you have true collaboration. 5 and 5 compromise. 1 and 1 resignation. Relationship at 10 project at 1 = accomadation. Relationship 1 project 10= domination

Should rehearsals be closed? Don't they just become performances if not? What about presenting for backers/designers/press?

I'll end on a joke

You can lead a horticulture, but you can't make her think.

say it out loud, it's funny

Thank you oh faithful reader for reading this blog of nonsense. You are a good friend indeed.

Happy 1?

Just kidding, I hope it sparks ideas, or at least comes across an iota as exciting and thought provoking as i'm experiencing. Night night, i'm tired.

Lincoln Center Day 1

So I just got back from my first day at Lincoln Center. I'm participating in the Directing Lab they have going on this year. The subject this year is New Play development. I won't go into to many details here I just want to get the questions out to explore (I'm basically just tired and want to go to bed and am making myself blog becasue i said I would and I'm trying to make it a habit so excuse grammatical errors and short snippets)

The best theatres were all started by friends, and with a few exceptions are run by institutions now.

Theatre was an apprentice craft. Why did that stop? University training. Can we bring back apprenticeships?

Write down 5 things that you need to take your work to the next level. Circle the ones you can do yourself, you'll be surprised how much you can do on your own

Have we reached the end of new play development? ( yes hopefully)

If the dream was an american Professional theatre, haven't we reached our dream? What's next then? Does it need to change? Be completely re-invented?

Those who made theatre companies did it in theatre's not schools. Now Young people aren't in established companies- they're in undergrad or Grad ( myself included)

IS there a divide between the best young actors and the best young directors? If so then who are we working with?

Why are actors still feeling marginalized? Do they fear reprisals for stepping forward? Is it a vicious circle?

Could a theatre give $ to a playwright to create a work completely on their own ie: Find the actors, run a reading, find a space etc.

Up ending the roles Playwright in charge of the room, director at the disposal, designer not designing

Institutional development = dead. If it is still going on we are beating a dead horse

If Artistic Directors were more courageous they would do more plays

Equity is a problem ( I would say it is THE problem in most cases)

Development= Backers Audition

Theatres need to lead an audience, not the other way around

Actors need to meet with the designers ( and they should be in the room from day one)

Hours of rehearsal aren't important. Days of rehearsal are

Do we have to have an entrepeneurial spirit to support our theatre habit?

Speeding up rehearsals to get to Previews are not about getting an audience faster. It is about selling tickets faster.

Objective actors vs. Subjective actors Objective wants to be part of the collaboration subjective want to be plugged in ( I want objective actors)

Notes about myself and my style:

I am not built for speed. I am built for durability. I am built to last. I take the long view.

I provide the actors a crayola box and a canvass. A flashlight or maybe a compass.

Ultimately I provide an opportunity for something to happen

Theatre is today what Opera was ten, twenty years ago. Snooty, High Falootin', for conoisseur's (sp). Opera is the fast selling art form out there today. It is huge right now. Why? Because it recognized that it can not compete with multimedia, so instead it uses it ( snippets on youtube, Met in HD in movie theatres, Blogs, etc.) Why can't theatre do something similar? Equity won't allow it. So instead people in theatre are trying to compete with film and tv by incorporating it. STUPID!

If you are still reading then bless you, you are a good friend. It is disjointed and all over the place, but like I said, I'm tired. Please feel free to respond to anything. Or nothing, as it usually seems to be.

Here's to hope and better things.

The Coram Boy

So I went to see The Coram Boy on Broadway last night. I had received three unsolicited responses that I needed to see it, it was my kind of show, and it was the best direction anyone has ever seen. So I scored $20 tickets and thought "what the hell, everyone is talking about it"

I'm going to cut right to the chase here. I don't know how I feel about it. It was remarkable, meaning it needs to be remarked upon. I feel like it was to much. It was over-directed. It was to much stimulation. It should have been my favorite show. It should have touched me and made me shimmer with hope. It should have stuck with me in a different way. It however put me in a funk.

The reason everyone said I would love it, and that it was my kind of show, was because it had all the elements that I build my shows out of. The problem being that it had ALL the elements. It was overkill. It eventually became " Look how we solved the underwater scene" or "look how we solved the scene that takes place over 6 months" or "look at what we came up with for this moment" Believe me I want to steal things from this show, but they will not all be going into one production. At some point someone should have told the director to stop, or she should have stopped herself. Reading over her Bio you find out that she also co-designed the show, and usually designs all the children's shows at the National Theatre. It all makes sense. She was directing from a design perspective.

Now don't get me wrong. There were fabulous performances. The Two Coram "boys" played by Xanthe Elbrick and Uzo Aduba were stunning. The 40 voice choir that sang through the show was inspiring. But it was all competing with each other into a gigantic cluster fuck of "stuff". Maybe it was the most amazing direction, there was so much going on and nobody got hurt. But that isn't the tell-tale sign of good direction. Could it have been done without all that "stuff" or even some of it? The answer is a resounding yes. Unfortunately the designer overuled the director, even though they were the same person.

I think the thing that bothers me the most is that it could have been so amazing. It is by far the most imaginative thing on Broadway, probably the most imaginative thing since Mary Zimmerman's Metamorphoses. The problem is though, that Metamorphoses didn't fill in all the gaps for you. Metamorphoses let you use your own imagination to paint some pictures. Coram Boy uses so much Imagination that their isn't enough room for you use your own. If, on the other hand you substitute a microphone stand fro a tree or a bowl of water for the ocean, the audience suddenly has some imaginative work to do. And this is the intensely pleasurable work of using the brain and the imagination to construct narratives and associations. Minimalism allows you to participate, less is more. By Maximizing the very important in Minimalism it accentuates what you want to show or shed light on. This was an example of Maximalism at its deadliest, Faux Minimalism.

I love SITI company and Anne Bogart, but the problem I have with their shows and Anne's approach can be summed up by her very own fears. A review of one of her early shows by Critic Ben Brantley was "...visually stunning, but unnecessary." I feel that way sometimes about their shows. I feel that way about The Coram Boy. But I still will go and see anything SITI does, and am participating this summer with them, and am devoting the next three years of my life to Anne. There is something there.

Gertrude Stein said "There is no there, there" when referring to Oakland, California. There is some there, there in SITI Shows. And there is some there, there in The Coram Boy. It is just hidden under many layers of "stuff". If you can see it, I would try and do it. Look for the there. Tell me what you think.

Are you still an artist?

I was listening to a podcast recently of Alfred Molina (Spiderman 2, The Fiddler on the roof, Art, Frida) talk about his career. Toward the end he stated that he didn't believe that Actors were Artists. Now of course this struck a nerve with me, but instead of throwing down my iPod in a rage and swearing to the moon, I decided to listen on. He stated that while Theatre may be an art form, that Actors are not Artists, they are merely doing a job. Now I have heard this same exact line of reasoning before from the likes of Kurt Russel, Harrison Ford, and Pierce Brosnan (all film stars), but I have never heard it from someone with a pretty sizable and extensive Theatre career. I chalked it up to having never trod the boards, until now. So what gives?

He continued to try and prove his point and it gave me pause as he told this story:

" I asked my class one day to raise their hands if they believed they were artists, invariably they all raised their hands. I then asked them if they were playing King Henry V were they still an Artist, again they all raised their hands. Finally I asked if they were a waiter with no lines on screen for two seconds on a daytime soap opera were they still an Artist, and no one raised their hand."

He makes an interesting point. But he merely proves that we are snobbish about being artists, not that we aren't. We all agree that Picasso was an Artist, that Warhol was an Artist, but what about the guy that designed the Coca-Cola label or the billboard on the side of the road? Are they still artists?

It is virtually the same analogy. There is good Art and not so good Art. I doubt that Coca-Cola man would put himself on the same playing field as Picasso, but he is still an artist. Acting may be a job, but it is also an Art. The definition on Wikipedia: "Art is that which is made with the intention of stimulating the human senses as well as the human mind and/or spirit. There is no general agreed-upon definition of art, since defining the boundaries of "art" is subjective, but the impetus for art is often called human creativity."

Pretty much what an actor does, right? So should we be more snobbish about our Art or less? Shouldn't we try and reach for the Picasso, without stepping on the Coca-Cola? Doesn't this mean we have to take the time, energy, and passion with everything we do?

So maybe the question should be changed from "Are you Still an Artist?" to "What kind of Art are you creating?"

So what are we trying to do?

The Diary of Anne Frank at Steppenwolf

I went to Chicago this weekend to see Tina Landau's The Diary of Anne Frank at Steppenwolf. Steppenwolf is my favorite theatre company and what I would like to loosely model the Necessary Theatre from. Tina is my favorite director and her shows have consistently made it into my top ten list of Best Theatre. The Diary of Anne Frank is particularly poignant for me having directed a version myself and engrossing myself in the history and horror of the holocaust. So this weekend was setup as the perfect storm of perfection or down right horror.

Steppenwolf tried something new with this production. They asked Tina to keep a blog throughout the process ( from pre-production all the way through) and gave the 17 year old Claire Elizabth Saxe a camera to post video blogs. I and others got a sharing and almost voyeuristic view of Tina's process, the designers ideas, and the actors rehearsal. Tina had travelled to Amsterdam to experience Anne's world and her Annex. She came back and with her designer, Richard Hoover, planned to recreate on stage a mirror image of the attic on Steppenwolf's stage. Martha Lavey, the Artistic Direcor said it would be to expensive and heavy to recreate a 5 story set piece, come up with something else. Late one night at their wits end Tina asked Richard what else weren't they thinking of. Very cavalierly Richard said "We could just get rid of it all and tape out the rooms on the floor."

Now I knew this coming into the space. I knew it was a bold move to do this that could either completely reinvigorate the work or turn it into a new-agey dance piece. I was hoping for the former. When you walk into the theatre it is a blank stage with all curtains removed, the back wall exposed, a simple black floor, no sense of hiding the fact that this is a theatre. Quite the opposite, Richard Hoover incorporated themes of the auditorium into the theatre space, letting us know we are part of this world. On stage were all the chairs, dressers, beds, tables, etc that made up the Frank Annex. Without any fanfare or announcement the audience quieted on its own (always a magical moment) the lights dimmed, and a trap door opened down stage and the frank family walked out. The stood facing upstage at the mountain of furniture ahead of them. A voice over of Anne began telling about how the Franks had to come early to a cluttered annex that they weren't prepared for. Then they reached down to remove black tape that was covering the white tape that marked the rooms. With this simple act, the audience all saw walls go up, with doors, and wallpaper, a roof. A world was created in our minds eye. I began to cry at this simple elucidation. I didn't stop crying for three hours.

This show has firmly planted itself in my top ten and the more I think about it the more it is moving up to the top. I've witnessed Peter Brook's Hamlet, Grotowski's Action!, Mother Courage in the Park, Tan Dun's The First Emperor, Tina's Time of your Life, The Schaubuhne's Hedda Gabler, and others. But this production will not leave my mind. From the awe inspiring set, to the ensemble acting, to the perfect ( and I mean perfect) use of viewpoints, a divine Claire Elizabeth Saxe as Anne, a humblingly simplistic Yasen Payenkov as Otto. We as an audience left the production knowing we had experienced the closest thing the theatre has to a miracle. We couldn't even clap when the show ended. I was numb. The lights came back up, the actors walked on stage, and collectively we stood. Still without clapping. It felt wrong. It felt cheap. You clap for your cousins recital, you clap for Chipper Jones when he hits a home run, you clap for a comedian at the end of a pithy and well placed joke. You don't clap for the holy. You stand.

There was a talk back afterwards. The audience members ( non-theatre people ) all had read the blogs and watched the videos I mentioned earlier. They talked about how they felt a sense of ownership in the production. I started to cry again. Isn't this what we want? A community with a sense of ownership? This show was perfect, but how much more was it because the effort was put out there to get the community involved as well?

It runs for two more weeks. If you can, go and see it. You will not regret it, you will remember it, and it will haunt you. You will chase after what you experience in everything you do.